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met Jared on Monday evening.
kana dragged along Orch to find his pair of Adidas shoes.
must be a Taekwando model, white leather and without shoe laces in front.
know something? s'pore doesn't carry such models. need to order from Korea or Germany...
after tt long walk, i was really exhausted. he's the only guy who can shop longer than i do.

we went for tea. caught up quite a bit. he looks better now, hair's grown a tad longer.
NS's getting to him. he's clubbing way too much for his own good.
he's tired of shopping for clothes. he's sick of his current rship. he changes girlfriend damn fast.
well, let him find his own directions. i'll just be here to listen and guide.
scold? maybe not. may the Holy Spirit guide him with light and love. Amen.

gonna be another 10 days before he books out for CNY break.
good luck boy! focus at firing range! we'll hop over to your church the next time!

i feel that i'm drifting from God lately.
i didn't lose my faith, just feeling distant from God.
haven't been praying much, or readng Christian books for inspiration.
haven't been feeling "in touch" with God and be filled with the Holy Spirit too.
maybe coz life lately's been really mundane, monotonous and predictable...
so there's no need for God to be around. okay, bad idea. i need God's love and grace everyday.
anyway, i am not saying that life's all sweet and blissful.
just that... everything's going well.
time management is working nicely. i'm stressed adequately to push myself forward.
i finally made time out to swim and sun tan at NUS pool.
i did my required readings and tutorials. i have time to bum at Orch after class even!
friends are nice. love life's pretty good as usual. nothing else more i'm asking for.
having said that much, i'm not growing spiritually. stunted growth.
how else can i be closer to God and glorify Him in my acts and deeds?
how else can i reach out to others and help them bring Christ into their lives?
i need to deepen my biblical understandings...

today's a bad day.
totally lousy. went to school without my goggles so i couldn't swim.
very annoyed. tutorials went well on the other hand so no complains about school.
didn't have much to eat so was rather irritable.
ended up having pork dumplings, beef noodles and chicken broth for dinner with Josh.
feeling very sinful now. i do not like to eat pork or beef or lamb or chicken.
i can't imagine eating meat. minced meat. animal fats.
MSG. growth hormones. antibiotics in meat. the pig was probably alive a week ago.

fish and other seafood is fine. but no, not shark's fins. that's inhumane.
veggie and fruits and nuts and grains are friendly.

went down to HMV. feeling very bored. and pissed. and angry at the world.
need some music to make me feel better.
i am turning into a world hater. rebellion and revolution is what propagates societal progress.
i love mother nature and planet Earth, but not people of the world.
i love money. without money, my world doesn't go round.
think Josh's bored following me around Orch, considering that i'm not talking much to him.

Desperate Housewives's really hilarious! animated cast, lively plot, corny lines.
pure entertainment! enjoying it lots.
Malcolm In The Middle, and Everyone Loves Raymond shld just be trashed.
give me my Sex In The City. liberation to the women!
CSI is really good too. last nite was abt Lady H., sexual fantasies, jealousy and obsession.
Grimmson wronged Lady H. blew his chances. catherine is so pushy. no wonder Eddie left her... thank God Stephanie is a sensible child.

sex, drugs, rock music. whoopee! you've got the holy trinity there.

weekend's here in a couple of days.
hopefully i'll get to hit the beach. NUS Surf n Sweat's held this Sunday.
no, no clubbing. freaking broke n tired. hell sing.

posted by Veen @ 23:46